It is the last day of 2013. Tomorrow begins a new year.
Today I am thinking ahead to 2014. There are many resolutions that I could make, but I will choose to make a resolution that I have grown into this past year.
I would like to ask you to join me in this resolution.
Today I am strong because I have grown strong. Today I have a plethora of information at my fingertips because I have collected it across the years. Today I understand many things that I did not understand before.
I am blessed.
I will choose to use this blessing with humility. I will try and speak to others from where they are on their journey, not where I am on mine.
I will respect the emotional fragility that comes from being new to things. The vulnerability that comes from discovering that wrong information has been held as fact. I will respect that as the holder and provider of knowledge and information I am in a position of power even if others have made me feel powerless in the past.
I will be gentle. I will try and speak with true love.
I will try each day to become more Nurshable, as Nurshable has come to symbolize everything that I want to be.
I will not be that person on the other shore calling out to everyone that they can swim. That it’s easy and that you just have to try.
I will be the one swimming back to show others how from the shore that they have yet to leave, not from the shore that I have found. Yes, it will return me to that place where I once was fragile and weak. Yes, it will bring memories and sadness flooding back. Yes, it would be easier to pretend that I’ve always been this strong. But this is a place I know that I can leave, a place I know that I’ve grown past. So I will return to show others that they can leave. That they can grow past. That there is no shame in starting out.
I will smile gently instead and I will repeat my motto. “This is what learning looks like.”
Come swim back with me. There are many women waiting to learn. Many struggling to try and learn on their own.
I started a group earlier this year called “Becoming Nurshable”, for others who have chosen this journey. I’ll share it with you now, if you want to come and join.
Come be that voice of calm. Even if just once in this coming new year. Help another mama learn to swim. I hope to see you there. <3