Along for a Ride I Didn’t Buy Tickets For

It is hot out. Muggy. I am tired and vaguely queasy. Everything feels off.

A loop keeps repeating in my head.

Why do I feel this way?
I am pregnant.
Oh. Wow.
Why do I feel this way?
I am pregnant.
Oh. Wow.

In some ways pregnancy is more surreal this time around. Like I’m along for a ride that I didn’t buy tickets for, didn’t wait in line for, didn’t board.On a rollercoaster, complete with the strange dropping and rising feeling in my belly.

Then I recognize the feeling. It’s excitement that hasn’t quite sunk in.

There is a life inside of me trying to grow to the size it needs to be in order to be born.

I smile and laugh.

I will get used to this, eventually. It’s nothing really new. I’ve done it before.

What a strange, delightful and perfectly ordinary little miracle this is…

  3 comments for “Along for a Ride I Didn’t Buy Tickets For

  1. Jennifer
    July 30, 2015 at 1:14 pm

    I just absolutely love your blog and posts. I have a son who will be 2 in September, and I am 9 weeks along with my second. Your words and thoughts have allowed me to view my sweet little guy in such a different light. I notice things now that I honestly believe I might not have noticed, had it not been for your posts. I love the gentle approach you have in raising your children, and I feel as though I’ve learned so much about the kind of mother I want to be by reading your thoughts. Thank you so much for that. And now I am just so extremely excited that we are pregnant at the same time, and I will get to go through this next journey “with” you, as what you are feeling, I’m feeling too. :) Congratulations mama. Xoxo

    • sarah
      July 31, 2015 at 11:15 pm

      I love having people to share the journey with! Congratulations, Jennifer!

  2. July 30, 2015 at 11:29 pm

    Yes, an amazing feeling. Beautifully expressed. Congratulations!

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