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Fireflies in the Night (A Mental Image That Helps Me When I am Depressed)
Depression feels like a darkness. Sometimes the darkness feels complete. I can sit in this darkness, as I can sit in the grass outside in the darkness of the night. I can feel how it surrounds me, and I can… Continue reading
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Depression and Self Hatred
I used to hate myself. Pessimistic judgemental. I hated to try new things and had crippling social anxiety. I was depressed and lonely. Now I am not. I feel that it is important to tell you this, as I know… Continue reading
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Crying for “Stupid” Reasons- The Emotional Fire Drills of Childhood
Children cry a lot about “stupid” or “silly” things. They cry because their toast broke. They cry because they thought that a pink garbage truck would come after the blue one did. They cry because you made them green eggs… Continue reading
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Just You Wait Until Your Father Gets Home
Just you wait until your father gets home. Here at the end of our thirteen hour days, six AM to seven thirty at night. Every last shred of patience spent. Just you wait. Just wait while the door slams open… Continue reading
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Sometimes We Talk About Sadness.
Alexander: Mommy.. Are you crying? Look. Your eyes are making tears. Me: Yes I am crying. Alexander: Why? Do you have a boo boo? Me: No, I am crying because I’m sad. Alexander: Why are you sad? Me: Because sometimes… Continue reading
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Discussing Death
Death. I start talking about it little so that when it comes around in a bigger way it is a familiar topic. Keenie: bug! Its not moving! Me: its dead. Keenie: oh. Dead. lady bug move? Me: No, its dead.… Continue reading
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Dragonflies Will Sew Your Mouth Shut if You Lie, and Other Convenient Untruths
Dear Mister Four, You recently stopped picking up the toys in the bathtub and frantically putting them away as the bath drained. Inconvenient, yes. But a step forwards in understanding the world around you. For months you would cry if… Continue reading
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Don’t Think of Pink Elephants, and the Annoying Repetitive Behaviors of Children
Don’t think of pink elephants. Stop thinking of pink elephants. STOP THINKING OF PINK ELEPHANTS! If you keep thinking of pink elephants you are going to have to sit on the bottom stair for one minute. TWO MINUTES! FIVE MINUTES!… Continue reading
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Is Pretty the Problem?
Is pretty a bad thing? I don’t know. Is handsome a bad thing? Is the color pink bad? Is the color blue? Pretty like a squash blossom. Did you know that squash blossoms can be male or female? But they’re… Continue reading
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Sleep Crutch
Restless. She cries and sits up, reaching over for me. Alex rolls her over his body into my arms. She melts onto my chest, her head in the dip of my collarbone, her little face turned towards mine. The heat… Continue reading
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